So The women in my family have a tendency to start menopause early, in their 30's. I have always known this, but when I wasn't looking I became that age. I have been struggling with anxiety, but now I think it may be anxiety/hormone imbalance brought on by menopause. I have some other symptoms as well, some hot flashes, and messed up cycles. I just can not believe I am having this conversation. I am 34 years old.
I feel like this may also make the decision for me about having another baby. Not just because my body may not be up for creating one, but also mental health. If my anxiety is being driven to such an extreme that I can not go grocery shopping then what business is it of mine to have another baby? A crying, unpredictable, uncontrollable baby. Hmm.. but I still want one more. I can not seem to get passed that. I have an entire list of cons to having a baby, but I still want to. I am telling myself, almost begging myself to make the responsible choice. That it is not a good idea to strap ourselves financially again. I just don't know. Boy we ended up off topic.
Anyway, I think a new chapter may be starting in my life. Not really a welcomed one, but nonetheless.
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